Controversy- there’s a lot of it in my life.
From the words I write, to the sounds I create, to my appearance… a lot of what I do is against what society would deem as ‘normal’ and ‘appropriate’. And when I do something, I do it wholly, completely, with everything I am, and I don’t expect everyone to ‘get it’, nor take the time to try. It’s just a part of being.. ‘alternative’.
My grandmother hates everything I do that is ‘different’. She has little faith in my chosen endeavors and doesn’t even attempt to understand. She is a woman set in her ways, and anything that is not ‘normal’ by society is wrong, period. [Fortunately, I have a thick skin.]
I’ve even gotten my share of Facebook ‘hate’ from fake ‘friends’ [whom I later had to block] for supposedly being, in my own words, an elitist bitch, when in all actuality, I was posting bits of intellectualism and encouraging others to exercise, take care of their bodies, respect themselves, etc. Not once have I ever said I’m ‘better’ or ‘smarter’ than them, that’s a false assumption fed by their own insecurities. [Haters gonna hate!]
And it is what it is. I don’t sweat the small stuff.
You see, there’s a much bigger picture that I choose to focus on. I’m not swayed by the little, obnoxious things in life- I could care less. I have big things I aspire to, and compared to my goals, the little things are obsolete. [Maybe I am a bit of an elitist bitch, but true greatness was never achieved by the small-minded.. and I’m never mean about it.]
I feel it is an artist’s job to offend and make people question everything. The future is in the hands of the artists, and through what we do, we can inspire change…
If I’m not making you stop and think, I don’t feel my job is done.
Put simply, my entire existence revolves around controversy, and I wouldn’t have it any other way- being an artist [in numerous forms] is all I know how to do. [Well, I can do many things, but this is the only thing in life that feels right, that I must do.] I’m a unique creature… I can’t live any other way.
Despite the ‘haters’, I get a lot more compliments than [narrow-minded] criticism. And I’m so thankful for all the support I get- my real friends and fans are wonderful! These people are the reason I wake up excited to work on my various projects every single day. They inspire me, and keep me going when I get discouraged. [I love you guys so much!]
Over time I’ve come to learn that you just can’t please everyone, and it’s not worth trying. Do good, do what you love, and surround yourself with good people who both challenge and support you. Be the best ‘you’ you can be, and ignore the ‘haters’.
There will always be someone out there who doesn’t approve and will try to destroy the things you work hard for, but people like this don’t matter. These are ‘small’ people who have little sense of self and would rather focus on others’ [supposed] faults than face their own problems. This has nothing to do with you!
Love and respect yourself, and do your best every day.